Day 3 of no contact, to be honest I feel a bit better but if I talk about the situation, I tend to feel anger towards my ex. So I found out there was someone else, through TikTok and when I saw it, I didn't cry but my hands started to shake. Day 1 i was a mess plus I dreamt of him at night. Day 2 I kinda felt sad but then reminded myself how things was rocky and I was checking out mentally. What i will admit like I know the way I reacted to certain situations could of been handled differently, which can cause my ex to feel a kinda way. But I always try to work on how I handle situations and react more calmly. But I never thought cheating will of come into the picture. Night of day 2 I started to remind myself that, if it was meant to be things will of worked out and seeing that it didn't, even though we were together for 1 year and o months. The love I deserve would of never put me through instances where I will ask to be taken on dates, to be heard when expressing myself and not be brushed off. The relationship was fun in the beginning but as time passed it became a bit dry. I did try to get him to go out to movies with me or on a ice cream but he never did. But that's okay because I know that I can treat myself to those things and that there will be some out there that will do it for me without me having to ask for it.
Last updated on:2025-09-15T00:41:02+05:30
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it sounds like the anger is sharper when you talk about it, softer when you sit with yourself. like your body shifts between shaking, sadness, and small moments of reminding yourself what you wanted.
day 3 is so early, i remember how my dreams were still full of him too. i kept replaying little things, like how he never wanted to take me out but i kept hoping he would. it hurt but also made me see what i really needed.
I know people processes things differently at different rates. I will say despite it hurting atleast you got to see what you needed. But as I will tell anyone or myself, try not lose yourself after the breakup. Cry how much you want to cry, let it all out. And know that as much as we did love that person, if it was really meant to be we wouldn't go through this. Therefore always know that there is someone out there, that wouldn't put you in that situation and will give you the love you truly deserve.
when i found out mine was talking to someone else, i didn’t cry either. i just sat there shaking like my body knew before my head did. i hated that he made me feel like i was asking for too much when all i wanted was basic stuff.
Yes, before the relationship over I felt like Iwas asking to much. I used to suggest let's go for ice cream or movies or even to play game together. But he will just say, "we will see." Bur it never come to pass. After the break I remind myself that, there is better out there, and that I wouldn't have to be asking or begging someone to treat me right etc.