im not going to do anything. but i prayed that I wouldn't wake up this morning again. I know thats dramatic, but this pain I cant take it anymore. its not getting any better, its not dulling at all. I just cant take it anymore. its this ache and throb in my chest and the back of my throat. and i know its just me bc he's told me to my face every time things fall apart and he leaves he doesnt care enough to let it hurt or bother him. its 'nice' when im around or we're together but when he inevitably leaves me again it doesnt matter to him. and i dont understand, when i've done EVERYTHING I can to love him, care about him, be there for him. it just doesnt matter. I have never been a priority, or even someone that matters to him. I know everytime we talk again how it will end, i know he will never change, i know that he really doesnt give a shit about me.. but i cant let him go, and i dont know why.
Last updated on:2025-09-15T05:42:01+05:30
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you’re holding onto someone who’s made it clear you’re not a priority, but your heart hasn’t caught up yet. that tension between knowing and feeling is brutal.
i just dont understand how someone can do that. the way he's treated me i would never do that to someone
i lying awake thinking the same things, feeling like the pain would swallow me. it’s okay to feel how much it hurts, even if it doesn’t make sense why you can’t let go.
i’ve been there. feeling like you’re screaming at someone who doesn’t even flinch. i hated that throb in my chest, hated that it never went away. i stayed too long too, even knowing they didn’t care.
hi friend, im sorry you are in so much pain. the pain you feel now is so real and so valid, because someone you have poured so much of yourself into has stomped all over your love and loyalty. but guess what, he doesnt deserve you. he doesnt deserve to have such a devoted and caring person in his life. and guess what else, you deserve better. you deserve a love that is easy and safe. you deserve a person who will pour as much love into you as you do into them. you cant understand because you would never do that to him. you would never disrespect him the way he has disrespected you. there's only one thing you can do now, block him and say goodbye. its so hard to let go of someone who means so much to you, even when they're hurting you. but now is the time. if the story always ends in heartbreak and pain, its time to close the book and atop reading it. lean on close friends and family. list out all the people in your life who pour as much love into you as yoh do to them and make them your priority. its time to say goodbye to man who doesnt understand how amazing you are. let him lose you. you deserve so much more.
Take deep breaths
see just ask yourself are you geneuinely trying to get out of that emotion have you started journalling why you shouldn't go back to him have you started meditation exercise i know it's tough even i just had a breakup just a week before and you can't imagine I am so crazy overthinker still I knew that I have to live for my mom because I am very grateful to her just find why you can't give up start journalling talk to chat gpt it will surely help you ✨
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