today is feeling a little harder. since yesterday i've been trying so hard not to reach out. the good news is, I haven't and I know it will get easier. For a weekend with no kids and work, i'm pretty proud of myself. I still have that hope he messages but then I have to remember, and if he does then what? another fight? another stressful situation when i go to town and hes falling asleep from being so high, putting me in harms way with drugs and weapons in my car? risking putting me in jail or losing my kids. nothing good can come out of a text even if he did so in a way, i'm thankful he's not. I have removed myself from social media so I can focus on myself and take a break from the world. I deleted his number, it doesn't help that I know it by heart but I will eventually forget it. I've been at peace all weekend with no contact. Maybe a little lonely, a little sad but at peace ❤️
Last updated on:2025-09-15T21:21:02+05:30
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uh says u r proud and at peace but also admits you are lonely and sad. sounds like both can sit together. deleting his number and staying off social media shows you are really trying to shift things.
you are doing so well. our relationships sound so similar. in my hard moments it’s important to hold onto the reality of how destructive my relationship was
deleting his number too, still knowing it by heart. it felt like i was tricking myself but it gave me space. that peace you mentioned, even if it’s small, i clung to that.
i hated those weekends. the quiet felt like it was choking me. i kept saying i was proud of myself for not texting but inside i was pissed that i even had to fight the urge.
keep going! you got this
you are wonderful, keep it up. I admire you.