I moved to a new town with a very good job, but still I feel scared and numb about love. I am scared because I am forgetting your face, your smell, your laugh, I am forgetting you and I don't know if I want. I feel numb about love because I don't want to love anyone else, I want to love you. I miss you and I don't feel that i need you (and I am sorry for that) but I fcking miss you.
Last updated on:2025-09-15T23:03:03+05:30
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the move and the new job didn’t distract as much as hoped. they’re carrying that mix of missing and not wanting at the same time, which is why it feels so numb.
missing someone so much but not wanting to need them either. it was confusing, wanting their laugh again but also knowing i couldn’t go back.
i hated when the memories started fading. i’d beg my brain to bring his face back clear and it just wouldn’t. felt like i was losing the only thing i had left of him.