Last night I had my first nightmare involving him. I had reached out and begged to meet up so we could talk and cuddle and he was so cold.. waking up this morning, I think was by far the hardest morning not to reach out but I'm on day 4 and I remember hitting day 5, reaching out and wishing I never would have so i'm hanging on to that. I know this feeling will pass, just wish I could fast forward but atleast I'm starting to have more ups during the day and they will become more frequent the more I relearn to live without him.
Last updated on:2025-09-16T05:14:38+05:30
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when you wake up from those nightmares what’s the first thing you usually do? scroll journal just lay there?
check my phone to see if he messaged and he never does.
hang onto that day 5 memory. i used to tell myself this craving will pass like it was a wave. i’d literally set a timer for an hour and wait. usually by then the urge dulled just enough.
i had those dreams too, the ones that feel SO real you wake up aching. after my ex left i’d dream of us hugging like nothing happened then i’d wake up and it was like losing her all over again. it’s brutal. but the fact you already see the ups creeping in… that’s huge.