It’s been two years since my ex ended things with me. At the time I was battling substance abuse and that’s why she left. Since then I’ve gotten sober landed a solid job and genuinely turned my life around.
But no matter how far I’ve come I still think about her constantly. She’s blocked me everywhere except TikTok and LinkedIn. Sometimes I see her reposts and recently I saw she started her first corporate job smiling in a photo with her new team. They all looked young successful confident… and of course my mind spiraled into wondering if she’s already connecting with one of them.
I’ve tried dating again but I always pull away. I know it’s because I’m still holding onto her comparing every new person to someone I haven’t let go of.
Last updated on:2025-09-15T22:07:02+05:30
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when you see her stuff online, do you ever feel like it’s curiosity…or is it more like you’re hoping for some kind of opening back to her?
i don’t think the thoughts ever fully stop, at least not right away. what’s helped me a little is whenever i catch myself stalking or spiraling, i try to do something grounding right after. like text a friend go for a run, literally anything. it doesn’t erase the ache but it keeps me from drowning in it.
damn i felt this hard. i got sober after my ex dipped cause she couldn’t handle watching me spiral anymore. i’ve built a life i’m proud of but yeah…her face still pops in my head way too much. it’s like the better i get the louder the what if gets. you’re not crazy for still feeling it.