I don't hate her. i can't hate her. Never could I do that. We were always a unit, always by each other's side like conjoined twins, ready to stir up trouble or having each other's backs. Why was it so easy to get rid of me? I find myself thinking, wondering- what is it that I lack that enables everyone to leave me so easily for other prospects?
anyways, maintaining no contact is tough. it's the loneliness forcing me to seek resolution, just to find a way to not feel lonely- even for a tiny while. it's currently taking every bit of energy to not text her.
Last updated on:2025-09-17T02:02:55+05:30
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can i ask… do you feel like you wanna text her because you miss her specifically, or because you just don’t wanna sit with the quiet right now?
that hit a spot somewhere. i thought it was just that I missed her, but it is a mix of both. more latter than the former. wow.
what helped me a little was riding out the urge like a wave. i’d tell myself “if i still wanna text in 30 min, i will” and usually the urge softened. doesn’t make the pain less, but it gave me a tiny bit of control back.
damn i felt this. when my ex left, i couldn’t even be mad at him either. i kept thinking why am i so disposable and it ate me alive. that loneliness is brutal… feels like it’s clawing at you.
dont text her! use the forum here and diary to write down your thoughts. dont censor yourself. dont text her! and theres hundreds of us here feeling similar, you're not alone.