I don't know why when it looks like that I'm making progress, I get this urge to contact my ex... I really hate it because when I do, she won't talk and it makes me miserable about myself. I don't know why I can't just let it go... I keep on thinking about leaving every thing related to her behind, but I just can't. I keep on coming back. I wish this all to end. I always stay anxious, keep on just thinking. it's been a month and still can't able to handle myself. sometimes I just want end my life because I just can't seem to enjoy anything. there's so much pain.. I always stay anxious... just keep on revolving around and this feeling doesn't seem to shake away even a single bit.
Last updated on:2025-09-17T02:53:32+05:30
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I keep phoning and texting my ex. I keep saying enough is enough then I go and gallop on my horse again. He also keeps responding with ugly comments after nasty ones from me. It's like we on a roll a coaster. He is divorcing me for vaping. Because he is a jehovahs witness. And he also doesn't believe in bipolar. Says I choice to have manic episodes. He has moved out more than a month ago ans it's been like this since then. It's craaazzzzy
can you tell me what usually happens after you contact them? does it ever lead to a real conversation or just silence that makes you feel worse?
this is brutal and real. when i craved contact i made tiny barriers put his chats in a locked folder deleted saved photos off my phone and told one friend to call me if i texted them. little friction helped a lot. you’re not weak for wanting to reach out you’re human.
i feel this in my bones. i kept relapsing into texting my ex for months after mine, even when i knew it would only hurt me. for me it came from wanting reassurance, not love. it helped me to admit out loud that i wanted that reassurance, and not to blame myself for needing it.
hey, it's perfectly normal to feel this way after a breakup. it's so dofficult to let go. month is not long. In many cases you just think of the things you were supposed to do together but you wont. if it makes you feel better hundreds of us on this app feel very similar right now. it hard and difficult and it takes a lot of free will and time to feel better. there is a lot of publications, podcasts and videos about breakups. I reccomend watching them, they really help. do you have any suport system? friends? family? call them! also, if nothing else helps contact psychologist. Not sure where you live but in most countries there are helplines. Im sending you all the virtual hugs i have!
thanks