I'm a medical student, and today we took a session in psychiatric disorders, and the professor kept saying things that happened to me. When he talked about depression, he made his question for a female version because it happens mostly with women, and he said we should ask the patient if she has lost her lover or someone has died. Does it disturb sleep? Has she lost her appetite? Has she tried something to cope with the sadness, like drugs or smoking? By the way, I started smoking a while ago to cope with this shit, and he said so many things I can't recall now, and I held so well just to crumple in the end and cry for the rest of the session, and I was shaking; my hands were shaking, my legs were shaking, and my lips were shaking. I was so traumatized to hear these questions and couldn't leave the class so the front row wouldn't notice, but everyone was looking back, and some of them were laughing! They knew about our relationship. He was older, and this year he graduated and left me after, and this is why they all know it. I hate him for making me believe he loved me. I hate that after all the practice, I finally fell down in front of my class. I hate that I tried so hard to stop crying but couldn't. I hate that he disappointed me. I hate everything about him. I hate that I still need him and wish all this was a dream.
Last updated on:2025-09-17T23:03:02+05:30
Comments (5)
do you have one person you can call or a quiet place after class to collapse into? even a single ally who knows can make the next day easier.
this hurt to read. if it helps me i’d say let the crying happen later where you feel safe. step outside breathe text one person who gets it and don’t beat yourself up for smoking or anything you did to cope. you survived the session. that matters. ❤️
I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't understand why your class would laugh about you crying. That's horrible.
oh god same. i once sat through a lecture where everything about my breakup was asked out loud. i held it together for like 10 minutes then sobbed so hard my body shook. felt exposed humiliated furious. 🫠😭
hey i hear you, this is awful, a very difficukt situation. I feel for you. you have every right to feel this way. Ill be thinking of you, you're nit alone. I hope you're feeling better now. hugs