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so its been getting worst and worst. being in love with a homeless drug addict is probably harder then being one. i gave this idiot my last 50$ with him knowing it was for groceries (single mom of 2 kids) but he was acting suicidal, owed people money that were gonna kill him, blehbleh. then, he gets me to send it to this girls email (obviously he doesnt have a bank account) come to find out, it was a girl he had stayed with in the past that uses but is still a greattttttt mother 🙄 you know, one of those girls that posts videos stripping, pictures with gun, the real winner kind. meanwhile, ive never done drugs, own my home, have my kids, work full time and have never been in trouble. its taking everything out of me not to keep texting how stupid he is and how could he dare ask me for money while being with a prostitute that does drugs with him, feeds him, sleeps with him, meanwhile im thinking hes suicidal and homeless. WHO DOES THAT? ive reached a full day of no contact, pretty proud of myself but i know if the anger doesnt make me lose it and contact him, my mind will start making up excuses then ill text him to apologize. i need to keep this no contact thing for my own sanity. he has me wrapped and im the most gullable person ever, obviously. Lord im turning gay.😒

Last updated on:2025-09-22T23:23:25+05:30