dayyyy 3....

I can feel the weakness creeping in. Day one i felt empowered, I was so angry at him and wanted nothing to do with him. Day 2, i was less angry and more hurt but I was ok. Today is day 3 and im starting to just feel hurt. Found out while i laid awake crying everynight worrying about him (homeless drug addict), he was using me. There were others. the one mistake he made, trying to be slick, was telling me he would never get with anyone that was homeless, turns out, the prostitute isnt homeless, she does drugs too and likes to post provocative pictures, acting all cool with guns and a hint of how much of a great mother she is. meanwhile, he was not allowed anywhere near my kids so we only saw eachother every 2 weekends. I thought non contact would be alot easier since he would only respond every 2-3 days anyways and i'd be lucky if it was more then a sentence. I met him when working in a shelter, left my job to be with him. he seemed to love me so much when i worked there. the flirting, the teasing, the smiling. then when i left, it slowly went downhill. he tried getting sobber but i knew it wouldnt work because it was for me, not himself. I've been trying to just support him and let him know i'm ready to be there when he's ready for change. he took my last 50$ knowing it was grocery money (long story short, i lost his helmets and he thought i owed him) even though i live out of town and was always there when he needed something. i'm just hoping it gets easier and doesnt start getting harder from here. i deleted social media and blocked his number to avoid all contact, i just cant let myself give in.

Last updated on:2025-09-24T19:34:39+05:30