This is one of the top 10 worst pains in my opinion, I wouldn’t wish this upon anyone. The feeling of finding out. Your heart beating, your hands shaking, your vision getting blurry, your whole body just shutting down. Your self love slowly fades away with the haunting questions you ask yourself everyday, am I not pretty enough? Why am I so hard to love? Is there anyone even out there for me? do I even deserve love? why do I desire to be loved but I get hurt in the end?
It feels like your whole world is shutting down, and thats how my life has been feeling. I got cheated on by someone I was inlove with, he lusted over girls on the internet while we were together. Now I think to myself if any of that was real. Did he even love me back? was he just pretending?…I’ll never know, and i’ll have to live with that because he isn’t in my life anymore.
All I ever wanted was a good man who would treat me how I always wanted to be treated, but it’s always been me who loves the other person, not them also loving me.
It hurts I have to live with this the rest of my life, I let myself down, but all I can do it move forward.
Last updated on:2025-09-29T23:52:02+05:30
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what’s been helping me is not trying to “solve” the why. it’s slowly accepting that his actions don’t define my worth. little things like journaling or even just walking at night with music has helped me quiet my mind.
i feel this so deep. i found out my ex was cheating through random dms and my whole body literally went numb. i asked myself those same questions for months — “am i enough?” “was any of it real?” — it’s a brutal kind of pain
my ex cheated on me 3 months in I didn't know then... when we broke up at 9 months.... 3 days later I messaged the guy I thought she had feelings for he told me everything... she confirmed it later by saying. "I wanted to tell you" ... nothing we did wrong.. were enough we will find someone who loves us.. were worth someone's love ... I question if she truly loved me still i question her words her actions... but we have to let it go and move on... holding in.. holds us back you got this be strong beautiful and believe in yourself