I broke no contact today and I feel so dumb. All I can do is cry right now. A song I was listening to reminded me of him and I send it to him and told him how much I missed him. It’s so hard :/ I can’t even remember what not feeling like this feels like. All I feel is sadness and desperation. Desperation for a sign that he still cares and loves me. You know what the worst part is? If he doesn’t answer I’ll end up looking dumb but he does answer the cycle beginnings again. I’m so tired.
Last updated on:2025-10-06T11:35:27+05:30
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what usually triggers the urge for you — is it mostly songs and memories, or is it certain times of day when you feel the loneliness more?
for me it’s definitely the night time when I’m alone since we used to sleep on the phone together or on the weekends stay over at each other’s houses. What made me break no contact this time was a very specific song that came up while I was studying
i’ve been there. what helped me a tiny bit was planning ahead for those moments — like telling myself “if i want to text, i’ll write it in notes instead” and wait an hour. not perfect, but it saved me from getting sucked back into the loop.
i broke no contact a few times too, even after swearing i wouldn’t. i sent a song to my ex once because it reminded me of us and i felt so empty. it’s like your heart takes over your brain for a second. you’re not dumb, you’re hurting.
I have been there for nearly 3 years on and off and it gets harder each time u go back.. today im really struggle an want to reach out but its not gonna bring any good.. block him it doesn’t matter anymore if they was gonna change for us they would of done it by now and made sure they didnt lose us but they are willing to lose us so let it go and stay busy if u need some one to talk to or share this experience ur welcome to ask for socials its so hard honestly x
yes :/ I agree I came to the realization that everytime he comes back it’s not because he wants to fix things it’s because he needs someone to regulate his emotions. I was always good at doing that for him and honestly I think the best thing is to block him