hello everyone :) I was doing really well, but the party happened, alcohol and my brakes gave out. On the 16th day I called him for the 3rd time at 3 am, thank God he didn't answer but even that wasn't enough for me so as a last ditch effort I went to his house to knock on his door. hahah, he didn't answer, I believe he wasn't even home. In the morning I was greeted by his message asking what had happened and why I was calling which I immediately deleted, because as soon as I woke up I realized I had made a big mistake. After that he called me and I answered anyway. To cut it short, he told me he missed me and that he slept last night, and if I feel like he's lying. we talked for an hour and at the same time it was so good to hear him, while at the same time I felt like I was betraying myself. He never apologized, he doesn't take responsibility, he's a cheater and a liar and I have to accept that. I was very open and natural, I told him that this was the first time I was in a situation where I had to get over someone who was still alive.. I said goodbye to him, wished him all the best in finding what he needed and was looking for and blocked him on absolutely everything. He just told me that he was sorry that he didn't love me more and that maybe this would never have come to this... every day is a challenge, I'm taking it one step at a time because I'm leaving behind an intense 3-year relationship that I hoped would be my last.. 7 days have passed since then and I'm proud of myself for everything..
Last updated on:2025-10-06T16:00:54+05:30
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how are you coping with the nights and quiet moments? are you finding ways to fill that space for yourself?
the first week was really the worst for me. I couldn't eat, I vomited, the very thought of my new reality without him caused me terrible anxiety. I realized that social networks are my trigger because I would research, watch, stalk people I follow, review likes, create all kinds of movies in my head. since i deleted instagram, i have been reborn. to calm down before going to sleep, I put together puzzles and puzzles, for example, of 2000 pieces. I read, I write down my thoughts. now I started reading the Victorian dictionary of flowers, I'm trying to learn something new. And yes. I stay away from all possible situations where I could meet him or hear something about him. also, it is blocked absolutely everywhere. the fact that he doesn't fight for me still hurts me a little, but that too passes. I hope I helped :)
it sounds like you handled it so well, even if it hurt. one step at a time really is all you can do, and blocking him was huge for your peace.
i’ve been there 😭 leaving someone you loved for years hurts so damn much, especially when they never owned up. i remember feeling the same mix of relief and guilt.