I dont actually know how much healing Ive been thru. i dont cry as much but I still miss him sometimes. I remember him everyday and he still takes a lot of space in my mind. I couldnt help it today and now I have tears prickling my eyes. Im waiting for him to pay me one last time so all contact or expectative of contact can die. I feel so empty. i know I wont get my answers but I still miss him sometimes when I go to bed alone or when I have something I knew I could tell him. I miss him.
Last updated on:2025-10-09T23:01:02+05:30
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have you tried writing out what you’d say if you did get your answers? sometimes it helps release the thoughts looping in your head.
that mix of relief and emptiness after the last bit of contact… it’s brutal. but that silence, once it stays for a while, starts to feel like peace. it just takes time, fr.
i remember thinking i was “fine” too, until a random quiet night hit and it all rushed back. it’s wild how missing them sneaks up even when you’re trying your best 💔