After a year together, a year of everyday calls, of excitement, love, talking about the future, he left.
When leaving he said the relationship was dragging him down (because we had arguments and he wasn't emotionally ready to face them) and all I said was ' I don't care ' and 'I wanna be alone, I don't want a relationship now I just wanna chill and get back my own life and be happy'' and a lot of bullshit. Even when I asked him if this is a break he said I can call it whatever. Like everything he did was ' I don't give a f anymore' which is not him. But afterwards he took my calls, he listened to me breakdown, he said he still care for me and wants me to be happy regardless, he showed 'conflict' and 'push and pull' but after I asked to call him once because I wanted clarity off that push and pull, he refused and asked me not to message him anymore. But I kept writing and writing and venting till he blocked me on all social media apps.
14 days since the last time I contacted him n he blocked me again. He didn't unblock me at all, and I had a second tiktok I was watching him with, he saw the profile but didn't block it but also didn't message it.
I am torn. I think about him all day. I remember the forever and the future we were building seriously together.. But also his immaturity now. I feel that he'll notice what he lost and that the love I gave him is irreplaceable, but I dunno if he ever comes back? if he ever grows up emotionally? What we had was so special to throw away just like that. A part of me trusts he'll be back eventually, the other just feels that he'll keep on being dumb.
I need gentle help and reassurance..
Last updated on:2025-10-10T15:24:45+05:30
Comments (5)
do you think part of you is scared to stop hoping because it feels like letting go means it really ended?
yes. A big part of me doesn't wanna truly let go. He was my first everything and we literally are a match in everything. We were building a future together. I love him to the moon n back. I'm holding on to the hope that he'll understand that the freedom he went after is just temporary n won't make him happy, n that he'll understand no one could love him the way I did.
the waiting and what-ifs mess with your head the most. what helped me was focusing on the version of me that existed before him — the one that didn’t need his validation to feel okay. it takes time, but it’s worth it.
i felt this so deep. mine said the same “i just need space” stuff and then shut me out completely. i kept thinking he’d realize what he lost too. it’s the hardest kind of hope to carry 💔
I was reading your post. I'm so sorry this happened, I been with him for a year and really supported him at his worst. now that he's better, happier, confident n earns more, he selfishly said he doesn't want a relationship anymore simply because he is emotionally drained. I dunno why men do this, I dunno but I keep the hope because unfortunately, it is what keeps me able to live. I remind myself that If it's meant to be, if he loves me truly, sooner or later he'll be back.