somedays are better, some worse. No contact for 18 days but I dream alot about him, that almost feel worse. He was a narcissist. I dont know what was real and not. We were together for 2.5 years, talked about moving in together, have children. But did he actully even love me or was it all a game? i dont know. I know he was sick, all his bad behaviour, was always my fault. He lied, manipulated me for 2 years of our relationsship. I tried to see his need for love and knew he didnt get any attenstion as a child beacause his mother was an alhololic but that dosnt mean that you have to treat me as bad as he did. He couldnt stop gaslighting me, lie, and make me feel sad, stressed out to the point i was loosing my hair. And get me so confused that I lost my memory and couldnt consentrate anymore. But I hate dreaming about him at night beacause in my dreams we are always happy. It gets me sad when I wake up.
Last updated on:2025-10-14T08:07:02+05:30
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have you tried writing down what actually happened right after those dreams? it helped me separate the fantasy from what really went down.
you've got this
those dreams fade with time, i promise. what helped me was reminding myself he only seemed kind in my dreams because my brain missed the calm that never actually existed.
i went through something almost identical… the dreams were the worst part for me too. i’d wake up crying because dream-him was the version i always wished was real
How long are you no contact with him ? at first I had nightmares about him, did you had that to?
I didnt know it in the beginning. He was my co worker, som i knew him before we became a couple... i was wrong..
never ever fall in love with a narcissist.. It will only ruin your mental health.