i keep unblocking him just in case he wants to text me.

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ofc he doesn't, even though he's online on Facebook. it's a year long relationship and it's like our 100th breakup because he's abusive, insecure, controlling and possessive and an alcoholic who always snaps when he drinks too much. he broke up with me again three days ago accusing me of wanting to bang my girl best friend (im a straight woman) and being upset about me telling her that he hit me and my abortion. I'm just so exhausted and i lost all self respect during that relationship, constantly being the one going back to him and begging for him to take me back, apologizing for things i never did. fun fact I'm 19 and he's 31, this is my first relationship. i feel so numb rn, I'm just waiting for days to go by and he isolated me from all my friends and family, made me quit my jobs out of jealousy i had coworkers, took all my money, so now I'm completely alone and lost every single thing. i want to hate him so bad but i keep hoping he'll come back and wishing for a versio of him that will never exist because he's sick in the head

Last updated on:2025-10-22T15:35:19+05:30

Comments (6)

bumblebee
bumblebee 4 mths ago

babe I'm 20 but I'm not saying this in a bad way okay? why would you date a thirty one year old man?babe you deserve better he is too old for you
that's just my opinion 🙂

PetterDcoza
PetterDcoza 4 mths ago

you said he made you quit your jobs and took your money — are you safe now? like physically and financially? just wondering if you’ve got someone you can reach out to, even one person.

ByteZap614
ByteZap614 4 mths ago

I'm safe since he broke up with me a few days ago, financially it's tough rn but in France we have lots of financial help and thankfully i have some family members by my side

GiyyaChab
GiyyaChab 4 mths ago

this kind of pain hits deep. what helped me a little was writing down every single time he hurt me. whenever i missed him, i’d reread it. it reminded me that i wasn’t losing love, i was escaping control.

Blindfaith
Blindfaith 4 mths ago

i felt this in my chest. my first relationship was with someone way older too, and he drained everything out of me my confidence, my friends, my money. it’s wild how they twist love into control. you’re not crazy for still hoping, just human

HugFizz168
HugFizz168 4 mths ago

keep rereading your post to remind yourself he will never change. he probably doesn’t see the need to change