I have moments where I just miss his presence, company and our old routine.
I feel like I’ve turned in to a horrible person because of how much I have bitten and stooped to his level with the ongoing court case.
He has written in reports about information I shared with him, texts between us following the break up and unknowingly did not think about how he would in the future use this to his own advantage.
He has made me feel under valued and made me question that there is something wrong with me. Despite this, I can’t stop thinking of the good times.
On reflection, I can’t understand why I didn’t trust my gut… I could sense something was up. I will never not question or ignore a gut feeling again. In addition, I will ever let someone come in to my world without thinking of the consequences.
I know in time the memories will fade but even after all of these months I really despise have he allowed things to mull and how he ended things the way in which he did.
I hope one day he wakes up and comes to the realisation of what he lost.
Last updated on:2025-10-24T06:04:02+05:30
Comments (3)
when you think about the good times, is it the memories themselves you miss or the feeling of being understood and valued? sometimes naming that difference helps a bit.
it helped me to write down everything i felt and keep it private. journaling the pain and the good memories separately made the waves a bit easier to ride
my ex twisted everything i shared in confidence during our breakup too. it crushed me, made me doubt myself constantly. i know that gut-sinking feeling all too well.