Unfortunately today is 4 weeks since he told me on the phone. And he still hasn't apologized to me yet. Although I don't wanna talk to him, I'd still appreciate an apology from him. He's a selfish jerk. If I could I'd say whatever words I could think of about him. And maybe I should. I don't care if they're nice words or bad words, I would still say them about him. As usual, I'm still angry and hurting after all this time.
If and when he apologizes, I don't think I even wanna forgive him after all he's done and said, and how he treated me and my parents with disrespect. That's so wrong. He's gonna lose everyone. He's already lost me, along with my family. Pretty soon, he'll probably have no one.
I don't give a - forgive me with my language - DAMN what I say about him right now.
At the moment, I don't know how I should be feeling. My mind is blank.
Forgive me if this is a long journal entry, but I have so much to say how I'm feeling and what I'm going through. I appreciate that I'm writing in this journal. I appreciate that it's helping me. I just don't know what I'd do without it. I'm so glad I found this journal and installed it.
Last updated on:2025-12-09T06:49:26+05:30
Comments (6)
what do you think hurts more — the things he said, or that he still hasn’t said sorry after all this time?
both
it’s okay to not know what to feel right now. sometimes anger is just pain trying to protect you. keep journaling. you don’t owe forgiveness to anyone who hasn’t even tried to make things right.
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i kept waiting for my ex to just own up to how badly he treated me and my family. the apology never came, but the anger eventually burned itself out. writing it out helped me too — it’s the only thing that made me feel sane back then
its okay, just leave everything to God. Same here, The disrespect was too loud but the apology didnt even make a sound🫤