I'm hurting so bad😭😭😭

In April I was at home for Easter break
I came across profile on Facebook on a random day,I knew his parents but I had not met him before so I sent a friend request and he accepted
I left it at that,I didn't text him
He texted first after a few days
The conversation was very short and we left it at that
Fast forward to May 25th,I was sitting in a classroom in school and I was scrolling through Facebook and then he texted me
We video chatted and that was the beginning of what I thought was beautiful
We kept talking and chatting and slowly I fell in love with him
It was the first of it's kind
I've never been so drawn to someone in that way before
He made me so so so happy more than I've ever been before
I've never loved someone so much before
He was all I could think of when I wake up and when I go to bed
In June I visited him at his place at Abuja and the time we spent together was so beautiful
I visited in July again and it was beautiful as well
I didn't know I was still capable of giving love again cause I had just gotten over a breakup
I didn't even know that I had so much love to give
He made me soooo happy
I was certain that we would end up being married someday
We had little arguments and fights but we always settled and I felt it was normal in relationships

Fast forward to September,I lost my Dad
He was very supportive to me through that period
He was there for me in the ways he could
He came down to Kogi State for the burial
He made sure he was by my side
After my Dad's burial he returned to Abuja and that was where it all started
He started being busy but I still tried to understand
Our conversations were not very regular but we still tried to communicate
It was hard but I didn't want to be the inconsiderate one
It got worse,he started ignoring me
I'll send him messages and he'll be online on Whatsapp for hours but he won't respond
I complained and complained
I was patient
I tried so much to understand
I tried to talk to him about it
He said he was going through a hard time and he was in his feelings but I didn't understand why he'll be online but not reply me
I was going through tough times too
I was still mourning my Dad too
I wake up everyday missing my Dad but I don't let that affect our relationship I still try my best to communicate with him but when he was going through a hard time he just decided to push me away
And then I decided to let go
I sent a break up message for him on the 25th of October which was supposed to be out 5 months together
Do you know what hurts the most?
He didn't even want to fight for me to still be in his life
He just let me go like that
Why was it so easy for him to let me go
Was there ever love?
I didn't want to be there anymore cause it was draining me and I was loosing myself
And I found it disrespectful that I had to keep complaining about the same issue
I just had to choose me
After sending the breakup message he didn't even say anything
I waited for a day for him to say something but he didn't that was when I knew that I had to let go completely
I blocked him everywhere and deleted his number
Now I'm hurting so bad
I miss him like crazy
For five months he was my favorite person
How can I ever forget him
I can't say he was entirely a bad person
He was good to me
There were times he was there for me and I wanted to be there for him too but he just won't let me
He just pushed me away
It's two days already and I can't even bear it anymore
It's so painful 😭 😭
I love that man so much that I can't even imagine how I'm going to be able to move on
The part that hurts the most is that he's not even trying to reach out
He just let me go like that
I've had a very hard year
I'm so exhausted

Last updated on:2025-10-28T09:31:10+05:30