I dread going to work because I know I’ll see him. Most of my day is spent searching for a new job online. I can’t sleep properly and I’ve been crying so much lately. I keep wishing things were different that he had been different that I didn’t love him this deeply that I could just erase every memory I have of him.
I wish I could quit my job but I have bills to pay and a loan to manage. Sometimes I just wish I could disappear. I could take a week off but I don’t know if that would even help. Deep down I know this pain will pass and that I’ll eventually find a new job if I keep trying.
He was my first in so many ways and I gave so much of myself to him. I don’t regret loving him but god I wish I could forget.
Last updated on:2025-10-28T22:30:31+05:30
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I hope you'll heal soon
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I’ve been writing about it here to try and give myself relief. I am just in total agony.
Please take care of yourself and reach out to family's and friends for help.
stay strong sis,I'm facing the same situation ,not at work but in college,I have to do so many things with him at school,attend lectures do practical,and I've never been one good at pretending like everything is okay,but he's good at it,or he doesn't even have to pretend,
so sad