Me and my boyfriend (ex) broke up in April after a year of dating and we had also moved in together, at first i didn’t think I love him this much but after the efforts he put in i fell in love, he did everything like everything to make sure am happy and took good care of me but slowly i we began to get fights over cheating 🥹 he used to cheat and each time he did, I forgave him one mistake i did and still regret and will never do again if he got back is I will never check his phone again, but i used to check his phone because i was insecure and he had this friend groups that used to take him to night clubs on weekends and came back in the morning that triggered me a lot and i would also go out so i cool off and don’t mind him because i would never catch a single sleep when he goes out, so we moved in and he really wanted a baby but according to the relationship instabilities i knew i would end up a single mum so i would terminate and lie i got miscarriages from stress i used to cry every week and this way he saw my weakness and he said he was tired of tears but that’s my weakness like when i break or sad i just cry it wasn’t intentional, so each time i got him cheating he would quit the girl but this one time he said he loved the girl and won’t leave her😭😭 i will never heal from such pain and so he moved out of our apartment and went to rent his own lying that we shall be in communication but that’s when everything ended i used to write paragraphs went into depression but he said he wanted to move on and this new girl started posting about the situation on her TikTok page which has never left me the same so this one time he replied to my paragraph was me asking what i did to him to deserve this kind of pain he said he forgot and forgave me that he is moving on and so i. should that was on 14th July, a mf ever since then i have never reached out again, he blocked me everywhere and i don’t know why my heart still hurts and loves him so much we have crossed paths like 2timez but we didn’t say aword only like total strangers, right now i got a new boyfriend who cares. , pays my bills but honestly i don’t feel like i want it to work out i just wanted to heal since they say only a relationship heals you but i have failed, he has weird behaviors, okay he is weird but tries to care about me though not as much as my boyfriend (ex) i wont lie i want my man back😭😭😭 i thought it would get better but it doesn’t and i miss him soooooo much more than anything and i pray God makes a way for us to reconnect insha Allah
Last updated on:2025-10-30T19:14:28+05:30
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you said your new guy tries but you’re not feeling it — do you think it’s because you haven’t fully grieved your ex yet, or because something’s missing in this new connection?
Honestly i think something is missing in this new connection plus i think, i miss my ex and haven’t grieved enough or let’s say i haven’t HEALED
sometimes we confuse love with the comfort of what we remember it used to be. it’s okay that you still miss him, that means you cared deeply. but healing isn’t about replacing him it’s about learning to be okay without him, even when it hurts.
I really loved him and felt comfortable with him it wasn’t about what it used to be, a providing partner matters too though..
i went through almost the same thing — he cheated, i forgave, and i kept hoping he’d change because of all the “good” moments we had. but that kind of love breaks you from the inside. i remember writing long paragraphs too, just to feel seen. i know that ache that doesn’t go away
did he come back?🥹😭