today I finally blocked him. he was being so mean and degrading and I couldn’t do it anymore and I blocked him. I also blocked his siblings on everything. I threw away some rings he got me with his name. I feel numb for now but I know I’ll cry soon. does it get better? I hope so. I owe it to myself to be happy. we spend 5 years together but whats 5 years compared to the rest of my life? I was tired of the push and pull. I had to let go. I was so drained my body was physically rejecting him. it’s time to chose me. I even blocked him on Spotify lol. this week imma throw away all the things he gave me. weird how 5 years can fit into two trash bags but it’s okay. one day I will be loved the way I love others.
Last updated on:2025-10-30T05:31:21+05:30
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how are you feeling after throwing those things out? like did it make it real for you or just... heavier for now?
honestly right now I started crying in my heart I keep thinking “maybe I shouldn’t have thrown it away” those were custom made engraved rings one of them was his initial and my initial and inside “I love you” was engraved. The other one was his name and I’d wore it all 5 years to the point that ring lost its color. never took them off. i remember him telling me “I’m sorry it’s a cheap ring but one day it’s gonna be a wedding ring” all of this makes my heart ache in the most painful way and I regret it. but my mind tells me to be realistic that it’s over now. those rings shouldn’t hold any value at all. it makes it real in the most depressing way. I feel good and bad in different ways. good that I finally started respecting myself and choosing me but bad because theres nothing more that I want than to cry to him and feel him hug me. it’s an awful, peaceful experience. I was just crying remembering how much I love him but at the same time I’m remembering how we acted when we broke up and for 8 months after the break up I did everything I possibly could to just keep it together. he told me to leave him alone so I did.
I know how you feel. I cryed for about 2 weeks, then I felt better. Its quiet at home but its peaceful. You dont have to worry anymore about how he is going to hurt you are make you stressed beacause you are afraid about how he will manipulate and make you feel sad and hurt. At least in my case I understand that my ex was sick. He was maniulative and a narcissist and couldnt stop lying and made up a fake persona of being a great nice guy. I did everything I could and I had pactience. I ignored all the red flags althought I felt it in my gut already 4 months into the relationsship. You will feel better, trust me. He dosnt deserve you if he makes you feel sad , hurt and not like yourself anymore.
it’s normal to feel numb right now. you’re doing the hard part choosing yourself even when it hurts. let the crying come when it needs to. healing always starts messy, then gets lighter
i remember when i finally blocked my ex afte of chaos. i sat there staring at my phone, shaking, but it was the first time i felt a little free. it really does get better, slowly, but it does
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this genuinely made me cry 🥺thank you