This week has been so emotionally exhausting. The court case concluded.
Yesterday we met to do doggy handover and for the first time in weeks we spoke.
I broke down and told him everything that has been going on with my troubled son. Sincr returning home I have been unable to stop myself from crying. I feel like my heart is breaking all over again.
I miss him and care about him still, despite everything that he has done to me over the last few months. I feel like I am back to square one- I wish these feelings would go away so that I can heal đ
Last updated on:2025-11-03T01:12:23+05:30
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when you saw him, did it feel like you wanted him back⌠or more like you just missed how things used to feel between you two? sometimes that difference says a lot about where we actually are in healing.
when I saw him and we talked it felt like nothing had happened between us. I looked at him and itâs like talking to a new version of him. He looked different but in some ways is still the same person. I accept there is no turning back- I would never trust him. I couldnât live without having 100% trust. I still care for him and wish I could switch these feelings off.
I feel that way too, like my heart is still breaking after 6 months. I'm tired of being depressed! The thought of starting over at my age is overwhelming. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone for the rest of my life.
I agree with all you have commented. I am 38 and the thought of starting again is scary. I think this whole experience will put me off relationships for a very long time. I have never felt so depressed. I know things will get better with time. Iâve had relationships in the past that have ended and Iâve healed. I really thought this person really was the one and that is why I feel so confused. we never argued, we talked, we enjoyed each others company.. there was mutual respect and trust. I am questioning what is wrong with me- am I not cut out to be in a relationship.
@Its0me0not0U I feel the exact same way! I thought he was my forever person. We never fought either. We got along well. I'm tired of being depressed, but I know it's going to be a long time before I'm ready to date again. My ex has already moved on with someone else. We were together for 7 years. Two months after we broke up, he already introduced his new person to his family. I've had plenty of relationships, so I know that eventually I'll get past this, but it sure hurts in the meantime.
You'll heal with time
Always allow yourself to feel everything
seeing them again always stirs everything up. itâs okay that youâre feeling like this it doesnât mean youâve gone backwards. itâs just part of the process. give yourself a few quiet days to cry and breathe before deciding what âhealingâ looks like next
sending hugs and healing vibes. â¨â¨â¨
after my breakup, i had to see my ex to exchange our cat and it wrecked me all over again. you think youâre doing okay, then one small moment with them pulls you straight back into the mess. itâs brutal
But love hurtsđđ