What do I do

Me and my ex were together for 3 years and we broke up a little over a month ago. A few months before we broke up he made a friend with another girl and they quickly grew really close where she was sending snaps of her in little dresses and they would call her the bus together ext and she knew he had a gf and she told him that she had a crush on him, I asked him if he could set boundaries with her because when she was doing wasnt respectfull of our relationship but long story short he didn't and it never happened, he never physically cheated but I can't help but feel betrayed, but he is genuinely an amazing person. When we broke up we where both crying and to this day we are still sort of talking here and there but I sometimes see him after college and we would talk and have fun or a few hours, he almost rested his head on my shoulder a few weeks ago and quicky sat up again like he realised he couldn't do that, what does that mean? Anyway yesterday I was on tiktok and one of his reposts came up on my FYP and I checked his reposts to find about 6 videos about a relationship such as wanting to go on holiday with them or about long hugs or they type of girl he's into, very vague stuff but definitely about somewone, I asked him if he is with someone or likes anyone and he said it's non of my business which I know it is but he said he isn't dating anyone but he won't say if he likes anyone which tell me he most likely does, we had a brief talk about why we broke up and he said he broke up with me because he doesn't want it anymore and it wasn't right for him mentally and I told him I understand and I would leave him alone and we havnt talked anymore since.
I don't know what to do anymore, I love him so much and I keep looking for signs he is coming back and j constantly have dreams about him, we both said we believe in fate and that if it's meant to be it will be but I'm so sad and disappointed that we were together for 3 years and I feel like I have been replaced in about a month. I know he isn't in a relationship and I know them tiktoks are about someone so he must like someone, I want to think they are about me but deep down I know they are not, Im just so lost rn. We go to school together so seeing her with him literally makes my brain hurt I miss him so much, he doesn't text unless I text first and when he does it's really dry but as soon as I am dry back he immediately is not dry so I'm so confused. My friends are telling me to move on but I physically can't like the thought of him with another girl makes me feel sick.
What do you think I should do? I'm scared I won't be able to love someone again like I don't deserve it. I'm not really close with my family so him and his family have literally been support system but now I don't have that anymore.
What do you think I should do because I'm so tired

Last updated on:2025-11-04T22:27:58+05:30