my ex left to go back to her perents place cause she really missed her two dogs and she missed her family, and when she came back she decided to book a holiday for the two of us and her family, she was alright when she came back we spent time togather and then she said she had car problems and it needed to be fixed so she went back up there to her family.
i do have trust issues but she was my first official girlfriend. she would always tell me about her past and sometimes compare me to her ex that she dated before me I did make fake instagram accounts of him to see if she was still talking to him but I told her it was me.
she came back and we went on a cruise with her family, they seemed nice they always treated me with respect and they treated me like I was apart of there family my ex we both took photos of the time we was there and plus is was my birthday and they wanted to celebrate my birthday with me. but her younger sister was annoying she would put ice down my back and say things that wasn’t nice I got off my ex cause of that I did threaten her I’d break up with her I was just tired that night in the end we had make up sex.
after the cruise when we jumped off the boat her perents needed her to look after her two sisters for when they went away for three honeymoon I was upset cause I’ll didn’t get to see my ex so I’ll waited a month and a half when she came back she was never the same. she has this roommate she is a alcoholic drinks a lot in her spare time and my ex put me in her room while her roommate was talking I think she was planing on breaking up with me.
me and my ex was planing on moveing out together but she said she needed time to think about her moveing out situation if she wanted to live up there or stay down here we was supposed to rent a house togather she made me do joint accounts with her and while she was away looking after her two sisters she got a job up there. I was proud of her but she didn’t want me to get a job down here she would say there is no point in getting one if we moveing up there.
I had to beg her to pick me up to hangout with her and spend time togather, but she said she needed space to think about her decision on moveing she dropped me off home. she tried not to ghost me but I know her mental health was deteriorating I’ll tried to reach out and be supportive the most I can and I did make another fake account of her ex to see if she was really over her or not or if she was cheating on me but I told her it was me. And I made one mistake that night before Halloween I’ll said I would go to her apartment and break her door down with a baseball bat and I called her a cunt too but I’ll appogised afterward I’ll didn’t know she would leave me cause of that we she called me up cause of that one threate towards her and said she is done so I did what was reasonable and blocked her and took her photos down she did the same straight away
I appogised to her though said I’m deeply sorry and if she would want to try again the doors always open for her i even told her mum and her mum reached out and said she is hurting to but my ex did contact me on WhatsApp and told me to move on and she will postage my cloths I left over there I felt so bad even now
i noticed she still has the photo up of me on my birthday and on the cruise on another account I made, And I have tried to move on but it’s hard trying to find another one that’s sort of like her and I been trying to do no contact she has blocked me on every single app.
Last updated on:2025-11-04T22:58:02+05:30
Comments (3)
do you think part of why it hurts so much is because she was your first real love? like, it’s not just losing her, but losing that version of yourself who finally thought he had something solid?
it’s okay to admit you messed up sounds like you already have. what matters now is not trying to “get her back” but figuring out why you reached that breaking point. i learned that when i stopped chasing closure from them and started giving it to myself, everything got a little quieter.
my ex used to go “home” all the time too, saying it was family stuff, but i always had that knot in my chest wondering if something else was going on. i also did the dumb fake account thing once just to know. it’s crazy what insecurity love does to your brain. i get it.