My love story

It's funny because some people say it's only really a love story if it lasted over 3 or 4 months but ours lasted just about 2 months it was the strongest connection and most passionate love and feeling I have ever been through and it has changed my life forever.

It's weird because just last year I moved to my home country for some reason that I couldn't really explain. This August I went with my auntie to the black sea and I was enjoying it I like swimming it was lovely inwas sort of looking forward to coming back home and go on my PC we decided to see a relative that lived a train ride away into the next town along the coast and on the way back I saw this girl. She was so beautiful she was so unique and she peaked my interest in every way and I did feel calm but I didn't approach her we were waiting for the train my family were disorientated and she gave them directions and I complemented her style and she did mine, I boarded the train with my auntie and we saw her walking along the carriage and she invited to sit with us and we talked about any vague subject that came to mind we had the same stop where we were staying which was her town. We got on the same bus I asked her if she wanted to go out for a drink she said tonight ? I was tired but I said sure. I kissed her hand as we left the bus telling her ill see her later.

I picked her up later we went to an outdoor restaurant we talked and we joked and in a calm way we clicked. We went for a walk along the beach I saw some steep hill and said do you want to go up there, she said yeah let's go, we talked some more and eventually I leaned in for a kiss, it was passionate I hadn't done it in a while but I could tell we enjoyed it, she said you've been waiting to do that for a while huh, I didn't I enjoyed her company I loved it even more now, over the next few days before I had to leave we met everyday she even took me to a small themepark for students I paid for a ride and we enjoyed it but she wasn't feeling too good after that then went for a longer walk and eventually came back to stay together for longer till probably about 5 am on the beach. We hugged and cuddled and kisses plenty and I just fell more and more in love and I could tell she liked me too.
The night before I had to leave we spent as much time together as we could coming home till about 6 am sleeping only about 3 hours but I only wanted to spend more time with her we talked and decided to keep contact, she explained that she only had 1 other relationship long term and it wasn't even a few weeks after that I met her so the breakup was new to her.
We talked everyday calling often for long hours talking about our days our lives just like. we were together almost then a month or so went by and we decided to see eachother but due to the distance we had to meet halfway in a beautiful city called brasov. I waited for her at the train station and gave her such a big hug. We spent all day just walking around seeing sites taking her to restaurants and gift shops and anywhere she wanted to go, we got the the apartment I rented and it was nice we were both tired but couldn't really keep our hands off eachother, I could tell she wanted to hint at doing something more intimate but I waited atleast till later to see if this is something she really wanted, I wanna be gentle we may have rushed a few things but this shouldn't be one of them. we went out had. a great day came back and I could tell she was into it now and we nearly did it but she asked of I had a profilactic I said no and we didn't do it because I could tell this is something important so I pleasured her which I believe she enjoyed and could tell I had experience. I'm 23 and she's 19 but she seems mature and grown up for age I am extremely attracted to her. the next day we go to new places and she has some weird pain we sit at a bench I find out she's actually a virgin just before I get a phone call, she even said hello to my grandma which I thought was nice. so obviously I'm going to be more careful now we had a lovely day doing activities then mayer bought what we needed and we did it for her first time she liked it and I hope it was something special to her because it was for me I guess so much so that I only saw her in my future.
we have a lovely last few days together doing things together seeings things talking listening to music that I haven't heard of before I even let her drive my car and we went somewhere she's been before.
theist day we had to wake up early, leave the apartment and I took her to my first drive through in the country and we enjoyed it I thought jt was just the best last day we see eachother for now and as it happens we exchange gifts. I gave her a golden rose with dark blue petals because i know she doesn't like to be given flowers but she likes the colour blue, she said its beautiful and I got us one of those heart couple magnetic bracelets to symbolise how much i wanted to keep this connection she gave me one of her happy meal toys that she seemed to really like a guy from BTS I almost didn't want to take it because I saw how much she liked it but I'm glad I did now, then one of her lighters from her collection I could tell it meant something to her.
before she had to leave we just hugged as tightly as incould hold her without hurting her. we said bye and didn't stop talking from then.
fast forward to about a month ago we've been calling everyday almost she started university and she has work and family has been stressing her lately. The last two days I felt sad almost as if I could tell something wass happening but I had no clue what, she started texting slightly less but more distant. I have been slightly overtexring or atleast been too available but I wanted to show her that I was there for her with whatever problems she had.

I had started a new job that day so I woke up really early she also had a long day both at uni and at work it must've been about a 16 hour day for her I noticed in her break she barely texted me and I tried giving her space but I wished her well anyway.
later that evening when she finished, she sent me a paragraph saying she doesn't know how to word what she's about to say but she needs to, she said that I may have been right that she may have moved on too quickly and her emotions let her get the best of her and that she may have rushed things but I know I'm to blame for that too, she thanked me for everything that wee did and how I made her feel and she truly enjoyed being with me, she goes on to day how things don't always go the way we want no matter how hard we try or want them she said she needs time to refind herself and concentrate on her right now and she wishes me the best with all her heart.
And just like that mine was broken.

I don't doubt that was hard for her to write and I am sorry she feels this way, I've been reflecting a lot not blaming and I have to say that I have been with other girls in the past in a different country, but this girl, this being right here made me feel so... ♥️ I was in love with her so much, I still am, she made me feel at peace and calm and loved and wanted and excited and I felt honestly a but younger and mature at the same time I wanted to make her feel the same and her smiles lit up the world like the rest of it didn't exist or matter. I know we may have moved a bit too quickly in fact I told her I loved her as we were kissing 3 days after I met her as we were kissing goodbye because I felt that I had to say it I couldn't go without saying my mind and she said so do I and I felt relieved and elated. I saw my life with her unlike any possible dream I could ever have I wanted to do so many things with her take her places. I understand we may have had conflicting attachment styles mine seems to be more anxious for abandonment, hers seems to have been dismissive avoiding now that I've researched thus stuff and since I got so much closer to God and I'm still finding my purpose and my direction in life I can see how this is beneficial for both of us really I do but I still miss her so so so so much she became so much so quick we even both said it feels like we've known eachother for longer than we actually do, but after thatast message she blocked me on absolutely everything even Spotify where she sent me so gs that I'd listen to even my phone number and I just couldn't believe it.
If you came this far I'm proud of you for reading it shows integrity and you should be proud of yourself to realise you care about others or at least inter3sted.
you see I don't think I'll ever be the same person after this again not in a dark sad way even though I am sad about this I hope. she's doing well I hope she's learning about herself learning to heal as well I hope she's having fun it is hard not knowing what she's doing how she is how her day is but that's the art of letting go. I think I will alwaysnlove her no matter what happens, at first I started praying for god to help me and to possibly bring her back, this was foolish. I started to realise that I really do LOVE her and that meant I will let go of her because I love her with love, love isn't possession it's giving freedom to love, at first I wanted to be angry at her and admittedly I was for a bit but I realised she left for herself and thats the best thing she could do and I support her for it even if I can't be giving it to her, I do sometimes give in to the thought of temptation, the same can he said about a lot of other things in my life but the best thing to do for both of us is to live and grow our lives as true real people, if she stays real.eoth herself then that's the best thing she can do. maybe it isn't fully Iver maybe we might meet again maybe not maybe it is really over foe good, we don't know, no one can know and it has been very hard and I still struggle but I have to embrace uncertainty, its what makes us human, we live not knowing almost anything for sure do if I keep living doing my very best in life and being the person that I am to everyone then I know I will get what's coming to me if that is her or not I do not control this I can only control me.
I know what I may have done wrong, we never argued but that doesn't mean there's nothing to fix, I hope she. Will become the person she wants to be and I know I'm on the path that Leads me to the light and love that I am meant. to be, whatever you believe in you have to go through it.
I hold immense amount of love for her I think it will be very hard to not think of her and its been nearly a month, she is all I thi k about almost all the time now but I am also taaking the right steps to becoming the best version of myself that not only she would be proud of and my family and ervyone but mainly myself. I still hope someday we may meet again if she reaches out or not but that thought is more doubt than anything, its fine yo think about because that shows how much I love her, I don't see myself with anyone else I don't want to be with anyone else I don't want anything or anyone but her, and that's why God stepped in and said now let me show you something.
If she is meant to be a lesson it's one that I am learning and one of the hardest ill go through because I don't want resentment I choose love, i don't want bitterness I choose happiness.
Of its the hardest option usually means it's the best.
I do pray for her everyday and myself but only for her to do well and me to improve and clarity and for her peace.
Maybe when we are both changed people we may yet again meet by accident and see eachother with maturity in the new people we've become and give her a hug that says " hello again" and that I missed her but that's not the point, the point will be to grow.

Last updated on:2025-11-08T09:22:52+05:30