I really feel like i had come to a point where i accepted that he’s never gonna come back and that he might not want to or even miss me. And I’m okay with that, i know what’s meant to be won’t have to be forced and i don’t think it would ever work out with us. but for some strange reason that pit in my stomach, the nostalgia and memories, the grief and the hopes and fears don’t seen to be going away. i feel like I’m doing everything right: focusing on myself, spending time with family and friends, making positive memories, finding purpose in other things. but the thought of him never fully escapes, or at least when i finally think it does, it comes back. I feel like it came to a point i got all my emoțional strength back and thats when i decided to very carefully reach out (not because i wanted a relationship with him) it was geniuenly just out of communication and curiousity without any attachment or feelings involved. he then responded me with hey back but it was a kind of disappointed hey cause of the emoji he used. so after that I kind of realized that it was a bad idea to text him or that he wasn’t ready or desiring communication. it felt like it helped me cause I finally got the clarity that I needed so now I’m not "hoping" for things anymore. cause if he truly wanted to contact me he could, I’m not gonna waste my time hoping that he’s gonna come back. those things usually help me move on and I feel like it did. it’s a few days later and i just saw a video of my city in the summer and i started to feel so nostalgic because our relationship lasted the whole summer and i am so scared of summer coming again cause i might get consumed by the memories and nostalgia of when we were together. and even though i was crying about him i started to feel tired of feeling that way so instead of feeling sad i started to feel a little angry. but when i went to bed i dreamt of him and it felt so real. it’s like i can’t escape him and it hurts so much
Last updated on:2025-11-21T01:16:41+05:30
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who initiated the breakup you or him cause I understand u initiated the no contact
me
thinking of them a lot is Normal, it may hurt but maybe that's because you haven't fully processed how you feel and may have transpired, you seem like a good person you will get through this, you may find someone better in time he may want to change for you who is to say ? the best option for you right now is living your best life regardless, of course its going to be hard it has to be for change, what sort of dreams do you have though that's a bit weird but still Normal.