I'm not sure this is helping me let go or cling to the thought of him. I know the trauma bond is weaker but still there and counting days just keeps him in my head(not that he isn't all I obsessively think about) I do not want him back at all- I just want to stop thinking about it. I can't sleep or eat or laugh and I cry constantly 😪 I think if I could sleep I would not want to wakeup and do another day of this misery it's awful 😩 😪 😫 😔
Last updated on:2025-11-14T04:34:02+05:30
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do you find the nights worse than the days? like is it more about the silence hitting too hard or the racing thoughts that don’t stop?
what helped me a bit was shifting from counting days to tracking moments i survived instead. like i made it through today’s breakdown i ate something i laughed once. it made it less about him and more about me trying to live again. sleep comes later, i swear.
you are exhausting your quota of thoughts so yeah its working
i used to wake up and instantly check the date like “ok it’s been days like it was some sick countdown to freedom. but it just kept him alive in my head. it’s brutal when your body’s still in fight mode even after you know you don’t want them. i promise that fog lifts eventually, even if right now it feels endless
it feels hopeless