all my friends are so in love. it’s so beautiful to watch because that’s all they’ve ever wanted. i see the way they love, the way their eyes light up and their cheeks flush pink. i see myself, back when i had you, back when i had that light in my eyes and pink in my cheeks. back when i had that beautiful thing in my life that i was almost certain would be there forever. back when i was just a little girl at heart thinking the love she was receiving would last. but now that little girls shattered watching her friends have the life she’s missing out on. missing the beautiful thing that ripped her happy, stupid heart out. and she can’t do anything about it.
Last updated on:2025-11-17T11:23:07+05:30
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when you look at their relationships, is it the person you miss, or the feeling of being chosen and loved like that?
i’d say both but this gave me something to think about thank you.
when i felt like this, i stopped trying to pretend i was happy for everyone and just let myself grieve what i thought my life would look like. it actually made the pain feel less sharp. you’re allowed to feel all of this without rushing yourself.
i remember watching my friends be all giggly and in love while i was sitting there feeling like something in me had died. that “little girl” part of me felt so stupid for believing forever too. you’re not crazy for missing the version of you that glowed. i missed him, but honestly, i missed her more.
that’s so beautiful, thank you for writing that.
I feel you! I find myself comparing to everyone that's so fucking happy and I am aching with loneliness