144 days ya’ll

I can’t believe I am at 144 days but I’m here and I’m proud of myself but while it gets a little easier day 138-139 I spent locked in a bathroom bawling to a small degree. Therapy continues on weekly but some days the overwhelming emotions hit me like a brick wall and take me right back to the first few weeks of what the no contact felt like, barely can breathe, grief that is so strong I almost beg myself not to feel because I am afraid of how big the feeling is. Babes we take one day at a time and it won’t be perfect and it will continue to hurt some but that’s how we know we are growing and truly healing. allow yourself to feel and remember it wasn’t that what you did or said or who you were wasn’t enough.. it was that they weren’t enough for themselves. You got this, I got this and here is to continued healing for all of us <3 I have been healing from trauma and domestic violence my now estranged husband who does have a restraining order on him did to me and a strong 4 years of that mixed with constant fleeing which left me financially flooded and spousal abandonment almost every 3 weeks for years. I know I got a ways to go and even 5 months in still not feeling like how I did years ago but I’m growing and beginning to glow again one day at a time <3

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