I miss him so much, it's killing me. It's so hard to let him go. I would want nothing more than a second chance to go back and redo it all over, but I know it's fruitless. I just want to see his smile again. I want to hear his laugh. I want to hold him again. this is so painful. I just want to shake my past self for fucking up so bad, but I know there's nothing I can do the change it. he's gone and he's not coming back anytime soon.
Last updated on:2025-11-18T22:48:24+05:30
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I feel the same as you. I wish I could go back to the past and undo my mistakes. I miss him so much. and I feel sad that he doesn’t want to talk to me. I lost his interest and attention:(
when you think about wanting a second chance, is it the person you miss or the version of you that you were with him? sometimes those get tangled.
the only thing that ever helped me in that place was letting the waves hit instead of fighting them. writing the stuff i wish i could say to him made it a little less sharp. you don’t have to rush letting go.
what's did you do that fucked up so bad?
it's a lot of explain. we just got into a lot of emotional cycles, especially in our arguments. I struggled a lot with emotional regulation and it took a toll on him combined with other issues.
i messed up with someone i really loved and that guilt missing them combo is brutal. i used to replay his laugh in my head just to feel close again. it took me a long time to breathe without that ache. you’re not crazy for wanting all of it back
this gives me a little bit of peace. thank you for sharing. 💙