angry at myself

do you feel like the anger is more about what they did or about how much you let yourself hope with them?

the anger be there without trying to make it make sense. it’s just your heart reacting to being cracked open. it fades slow but it does fade.

i let someone into my life after years of being guarded and he ended up blowing everything up. i was so mad at myself for trusting him. like… how did i let someone get that close? that anger hits different because it’s not just at them. it’s at the part of you that wanted to believe in something soft again.