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i went on his bus today, to talk to a mutual friend (his ex talking stage too!!) i called her other ex boyfriend a bitch and heard him giggle. i also said his name while talking to her and he heard it. i wonder what he was thinking. i wonder if he missed me. if he wanted to unblock me and try again. i wonder if he felt the same as me. i doubt it. i’m really trying to get over him but it’s so hard.
i love him so much

i’m always waiting if he wants to come back

Last updated on:2025-11-20T06:54:33+05:30

Comments (6)

Maleego
Maleego 3 mths ago

do you think you’d actually want him back as he was, or are you missing the version of him you hoped he’d be with you?

caitie
caitie 3 mths ago

no i’d want him back how he is i love him

NIbbula01
NIbbula01 3 mths ago

when i get stuck like this, i try to remind myself that wondering what they feel doesn’t actually change anything. it just keeps me hurting. so i focus on what i’m doing right now, like grounding myself in my own life again, even if it’s messy.

caitie
caitie 3 mths ago

thank you so much that helped a lot

unknownPP
unknownPP 3 mths ago

i remember seeing my ex in a random place, just his laugh in the background, and my whole chest flipped. i kept wondering the SAME thing… like does he miss me, does he think about me, does he regret it. that loop is brutal. it’s wild how one tiny moment can drag all the feelings back up

BoboBun393
BoboBun393 3 mths ago

I no the feeling trust me we love them like crazy but honestly currently thr more rotten inside then b4 you exited out. they only return to demolish you more.