12 days i think i stopped counting

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I woke up confused i woke up this morning and it took a minute for my brain to catch up and i realized it's really over. I'm calm surprisely after crying every day. I'm actually scared is this the calm before the storm did my heart stop working because I know I miss him 5 years together gone

Last updated on:2025-11-20T10:32:33+05:30

Comments (8)

Bisscotti
Bisscotti 3 mths ago

do you feel like the breakup was sudden for you or did you kinda see signs before it happened? sometimes that plays into why the mornings feel so disorienting

ladyT
ladyT 3 mths ago

well we already broke up in April and made up in June so this was us trying to fix us but I don't think we recovered from April it was like we couldn't go back to the way it was. he had set rules basically made me less than a gf and I copied everything he did e.g if he took 4 hours to reply to Me I would do the same if he didn't ask to see me I wouldn't ask him

Passiptha
Passiptha 3 mths ago

when this happens to me, i try not to overthink the calm. sometimes it’s just your system taking a tiny break. the waves come and go. it doesn’t mean you don’t care.

ladyT
ladyT 3 mths ago

honestly I want the waves to stop I'm starting to feel like a psycho

Dreamer01
Dreamer01 3 mths ago

when my relationship ended, there was this one morning where i woke up and my body felt weirdly calm, like it forgot we weren’t “us” anymore. it scared me so much because i thought the pain was about to slam back into me any second. that numbness hits different. it’s like your brain is protecting you for a minute.

ladyT
ladyT 3 mths ago

yes that's exactly how I felt it's almost as if my brain and my heart detached from each other

ChillPals137
ChillPals137 3 mths ago

I think that's healing

ladyT
ladyT 3 mths ago

I really hope so ....