I mean I'm done. He cheated on me, I flew across the country to go and see him and I checked his phone. I saw that he was using hinge while we were in ldr as I had left my job and moved back home. Besides, he even took my unsolicited nudes when I was drunk one night and we were doing it. He was still keeping his sex tapes w his ex girlfriend two years after their breakup
I have been trying to moveon since June. But I always end up reaching out in some way or the other. Today I decided that Im done and this has to stop but then I called out of curiosity just to see if im still blocked or not 💀🤡
Last updated on:2025-11-21T21:06:03+05:30
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what do you feel in your body right before you reach out?
what usually helps me when i’m in that loop is telling myself “curiosity is still contact.” i try to sit on my hands for a few hours before i act on the impulse. sometimes that tiny pause saves me from spiraling.
my ex did the same wild stuff… cheating, hiding old videos of his ex, using apps while telling me he “wasn’t ready.” i remember that moment of “i’m done” and then still checking if i was blocked like some part of me needed proof he didn’t care. it’s such a lonely kind of hurt. you’re not crazy for slipping.
how do I come out of this thing?
And this is a pattern which i wanna break. I don't want him. Nope, not at all but how do I stop reaching out to him