day 4

i’m so confused as to how i feel . i had a dream about him last night , and i woke up with this pit in my stomach . Since the only reason we broke up was long distance , we both still love each other . So whenever i think of him it hurts knowing if we were living closer his parents would have allowed us to keep dating.

due to the long distance , i don’t have to deal with the pain of seeing him around . But whenever i check my phone im reminded he’s gone . i could call him for hours and not get bored , we’d text throughout the day about the most random things . I miss seeing his notification pop up . it’s starting to hit me he’s not coming back and it hurts when i replay all the memories . it’s like im not missing him when im distracted , but when i think about how id usually be texting him or how inlove we were (still are) it hurts my heart. I know it will get better in a few months but right now the thought of him or me moving on makes me want to throw up .

I’m still in contact with his sister ; she sad he’s going to take a while to get over me because i was all he talked about . Now i’ve stoped asking her for updates , it will hurt me too much . but a part of me sort of finds comfort knowing he’s also struggling with losing me too. Eventually in the future , i hope we can be friends again.

Last updated on:2025-11-22T14:32:06+05:30