sometimes I wonder if he ever looks back at all the things he did and feels embarrassed for acting like this. I wonder if it ever weighs on his heart how much he made me cry. I wonder if when he finally sits alone without any distractions he realizes what he’s done. I wonder if a small part of him regrets anything he did. I wonder if he cries the way I do. I wonder if that guilt eats him up at night. I wonder if he feels that small hint of guilt when he sees, hears, smells, or does anything that reminds him of me.
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when you imagine him feeling that guilt, what part of that comforts you the most? is it wanting accountability, or wanting to feel like you mattered to him in the end?
if he does feel all that guilt, it won’t show up in a way that heals me. like… his regret won’t fix the nights he made you cry. focusing on me, not his conscience, ended up hurting less.
i used to lie awake wondering the exact same things about my ex. he lied, cheated, acted cold, and i kept thinking “there’s no way he sleeps peacefully after all that.” i obsessed over whether he ever felt even a DROP of guilt. you’re not crazy for wondering, it’s what heartbreak does to us
i think it’s impossible for humans to not feel any sort of emotions towards someone they loved , even if they act like they don’t care. deep in his heart he has to feel some sort of guilt or sadness , he’s human , we all feel . at the start, you’d going to keep questioning this but soon i promise it gets better 💓