Since yesterday, since I tried everything in my power to keep you in my life and nothing worked - I feel better. Not because I wouldnt want to live my life with you, but because I understand now that there is really nothing I could do to keep you with me.
I am also hurting about the way you didnt even want to try and give us another chance. Although I know it hurts you too, but I know you could have done it, and we could overcome everything.
Yes, I feel better now and slowly letting go, finally. But it feels so wild that you are that one person that I was 100% sure I was gonna marry, have kids and travel the world with, and now you are nothing more than a memory of mine. A lesson i've learnt.
I dont hate you, I'm just really offended by your actions. If anything will happen I will still be there. But imma go on, I will find someone else to give all my love to. Someone who will not give up on me this way. Im not even sure Im capable of loving this hard again, but i am definitely going to try.
Last updated on:2025-11-27T02:33:57+05:30
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when you say you tried everything to keep them, what was the moment you realized “okay… this is it, there’s nothing more i can do”?
I asked him to give it a chance only for a month, only for him to feel if he likes it or not. I told him that if he wont feel good about it he can go away and I wont say anything more. He said that he needs a day to think about it, and called me 20 minutes later and said that he thinks its a bad idea, that he is not ready for it.
Then I understood that no matter what I'll say, its just something about him and i cant change it. I saw how deep he was convinced that we cant try again now, and how quickly he made that decision.
That was the moment I really gave up. I didnt really stop loving him but I got really hurt by him also giving up on me, and decided that even if somehow we are to get back together - he will have to fight for it like I did.
And actually he doesnt have much time because I believe as time passes my love for him gradually fades, but as sad as it is, its better than living longing for someone and not be able to be with them.
in this spot is letting the anger and the softness exist at the same time. like you can be offended by how they handled it and still not hate them. both can be true. and don’t rush yourself into “finding someone else.” just let your heart breathe for a bit. it’s been through a lot
Yeah youre right. Sometimes its easy to forget how it is to be single after being so in love for this much time though. Its so different haha
waking up one morning after begging my ex to stay and realizing… yeah, there’s literally nothing left for me to fight for. that same weird mix of relief and heartbreak. it’s like your whole future snaps in half and you’re just staring at the version of them that lives only in memory now. i felt that “i thought i’d marry you” line in my bones.