so now maybe its 2 months of her leaving me
but now im just really really alone and idk i miss her or what but suddenly still i get flashbacks in middle of the day and that takes me into 10/15 minutes constantly in that thought and
now im not getting sleep till 2 but still im waking at 6 in the morning cause of the job
and now that she left because one of the reasons she got the job/placment and i couldn’t although we told eachother whosoever got the job will support the other one and will live together but just 3 weeks she just left and even went for trip parties with those colleagues who she met 2/4 weeks only and she told me when i caught her lie about this that why you broke she mentioned that its due to health issue but i found her she went for a trip
and now her salary was just 40k in that she have savings maybe 20/30 only and
that day when i confronted her shesaid to me while in sarcastic way
dude be a man you couldn’t even get a f job and your telling me
although it was me who filled her form dragged her for the interview stood outsdie the office for her
but that day she how she mentioned while i was not able to breathe got so much in anxiety and i was only asking why lie….
it was 4 years
i was the one who even helped her to pay for her semester fees
but she just moved in just 1 week like it was nothing
later she also said
i feel worst when i hear my name from you mouth
all this chaos are still in my mind and im fucked in my mind
today i got the job 2 times her amount
but she doesn’t know
not anyone know
i kept myself in one peice
but what about this loneliness and my thoughts
im just completely empty inside
my family don’t know about all this
but they are like sending me pics of girl for my arrange marriage and for engagement
but
i feel nothing inside me
anymore..
Last updated on:2025-11-29T01:50:04+05:30
Comments (3)
did you ever get a chance to actually grieve the breakup, or were you thrown straight into work and pretending you’re fine? it kinda sounds like you had zero space to fall apart.
what helped me a little was letting myself feel everything in small pieces instead of trying to swallow the whole thing. like, i’d have my flashbacks or those 2am moments and i’d just sit with them for a few minutes. over time it stopped knocking me out the same way.
my ex dipped on me right when i needed her the most too, then acted like all the stuff i did for her never happened. that “be a man” type line… yeah, that one stays stuck in your chest for months. you’re not crazy for replaying it. heartbreak betrayal at the same time hits different.