hi! it's that time of the week for me to journal again
the week started off pretty well, i was feeling good about myself and all, but the past 3 days have been a small setback in my healing journey
basically i'm missing him again, i'm thinking about how i crave his texts, our conversations, how i just crave to feel loved by a person i love. i think this might be the strongest urge i have had to reach out again. i know i won't, however i have been feeling a horrible ache these last few days
i'm starting to take better care of myself again, which feels good. i've gotten into a skincare routine and i've been trying out new hairstyles, which is fun. i've also been convinced to set up a dating profile. talking to other people has helped me get my mind off things, though i haven't felt a spark with any of them yet. i wonder if it's too soon for me
so basically i've been struggling a bit. i try to remind myself that healing isn't linear, but i do wish it was. feeling this way is absolutely terrible. i'm hoping i'll bounce back soon
Last updated on:2025-12-01T19:50:04+05:30
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when you say this urge to reach out is the strongest one you’ve had… is it because something reminded you of him recently, or is it just the loneliness wave hitting hard these days?
i try to just be like “ok cool, brain is acting up again” and keep doing the tiny things that make me feel human. sometimes talking to new people feels empty at first but it still distracts your mind enough to get through the heavy days. you’re already doing the right stuff even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
doing so good for like a week then suddenly missing my ex so bad it felt physical. i’d be hyping myself up with skincare and cute outfits, then boom… the ache hits again. you’re not weird for craving the old texts and that “loved” feeling. i used to reread old chats just to feel something. it’s messy but i promise it’s normal
find solace in your skincare routine and other ways you can focus on yourself. it's normal to miss him, too, outside of that. just do the best you can with what you have and it's good that you know that healing is not linear. there's good and there's bad days while you're moving through grief. congratulations on hitting week four of no contact, you're strong and you got this. :)