moment of realization (to long I'm sorry)

after so long of romanticizing something that never existed I wanna say the toxic and awful things he did, I don't have someone to talk about this, I hope that whoever reads this can open their eyes and see that we don't miss the person, only the good memories.
1. Basically he forbade me from speaking to a friend because he swore that he had feelings for me.
2. Whenever it was cold I would give him my sweatshirt, he never lent me his (this one is a little funny)
3. He said I was a piece of shit and for a long time I believed him.
4. He accidentally broke the water tap in my house, and never paid for it.
5. After breaking up whe kept talking, he kept flirting with me, I had feelings for him, but I never flirt back, he asked me for sex, I said no and inmediatly told me that he was seeing somebody else. he said we could be friends that his new girlfriend would understand, obviously I said no. I did a lot of stupid things for his attention, I begged him to care, to stay. At the end he ghosted me and started dating the other girl the same week he stopped talking to me.
6. I stopped using crop tops because he was disgusted of belly buttons.
7. He touched me once in a way I didn't like even tho I said no (I still feel guilty about this one)
8. He never knew me well. this one hurts a lot.
9. Finally, I stopped talking because everything I said or the way I act was "mean" or "rude" even tho most of the time I was trying to joke around to help him with his depression.

Last updated on:2025-12-03T03:11:48+05:30