day 37, silent grief is the worse. the longing for him I cannot stand. some say “ooh you should talk about it, it helps with healing” or “don’t push the thoughts away, it’ll come back stronger”. I feel stuck in this loop and don’t know how to get out.
Last updated on:2025-12-15T19:17:25+05:30
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when the longing hits hardest, is it more about missing him or missing how you felt when you were with him?
its hard to say alittle of both. I miss our old routines, the comfort he gave. but I’m also tired of feeling like this and want to get back to how I was. so I guess both. regardless of everything that happen, we’ve known each other since kids. dated in middle & highschool. took a break and came back together. so we always have a strong bond. and honestly I think I miss the friendship more then the romance.
it was letting the grief show up in tiny doses, like writing one messy line or crying for five minutes, then stopping. i couldn’t force healing, i just made it less suffocating
i remember functioning on the outside but grieving quietly inside, like nobody could see it. that silent ache, the CONSTANT missing, it nearly broke me. you’re not weak for feeling this.
I ended up getting into a night book club, my advice is to join honestly any club in general to get out of the house a bit more because it normally hits me more at night time for me.
All I can is it gets better. It will get better. I'm on day 76 but yesternight I had a breakdown. I really thought that I had healed. So just trust the process
im on. the 2 day completely no talking i found something that works for me but cleaning our room was so messy I worked all the time and he was home no job and he left I had to make the room mine again