I catch myself sometimes looking on instagram if he is online or not and try to think what he is doing
just basically think of him all the time wondering what he is doing and if he think the same as me about these questions
but I don't wanna do this anymore, I Dont want, that he has that much control over me, even he doesn't know
but I also don't wanna block him to because he might think, that I hate him if he still care... what can I do :(
Last updated on:2025-12-16T00:11:19+05:30
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when you catch yourself thinking about him, do you notice what triggers it? is it boredom, loneliness, or just habit? figuring that out helped me slow the spiral.
when I see something that reminds me of him or something that I think you would like too
mostly in the little moments when I wish, he was there
but also a lot, when I have time to think and there is nothing more interesting like when I sit in the university
what helped me was setting little boundaries for myself, like no checking social media for hours. you don’t have to block him to regain your peace. even muting stories can help.
I can't see his stories anymore. he unfollowed me and has a privat account. But I could still see if hes online or not. sometimes this gave me hope. that he is stilk there, somewhere at the other side of the screen. and some days I thought what he is doing or if he writes with other women. and this overthinking about it hurted so much but I couldn't stop either.
I resticted his account now. I cant see if he is online and he also cant. I don't see the chat anymore but it isn't deleted. I think thats the best way for now to handle this
i kept checking if he was online and it was eating me alive. took me months to finally just let go of that control. it’s brutal but possible
yes, sometime it gave me peace that he is still out there, that he wasn't a dream and still is there somewhere behind the screen. but wondering what he is doing killed me inside.
I wonder if he has my google account too. I can't remember, if I gave him mine too but I think so. and the other hand, I don't really care
yes pls block mute girl
did it, I couldn't do this anymore