I was with him for almost two years

I was with him for almost two years. Around a year and a half in our relationship hit rock bottom. We argued constantly usually because he was in a mood and had no patience or understanding for me. There were many issues I won’t go into but the truth is he didn’t treat me right. Toward the end he became cruel distant and completely unaffectionate I was convinced he no longer loved me.
After months of fighting and talking about breaking up he threatened to call the real estate agency and have me removed from the lease if I couldn’t pay rent. That threat destroyed my housing stability and I ended up homeless living in a refuge. A couple of weeks later we reconnected. He apologized seemed regretful and said all the right things: I messed up the best thing that ever happened to me I love you and want this to work We just need time to work on ourselves but let’s wait for each other. For months after the breakup he told me he loved me and promised to make the effort to be the one for me. Against my better judgment I gave him another chance.
I was reluctant because he had been emotionally and financially abusive domestic violence workers even confirmed that what I went through was abuse. But I forgave him because I didn’t want to carry hate in my heart and I believed in the good side of him. He promised he’d never throw me away that he loved me that we’d get married. For a few months things felt good again when we unofficially got back together.
Eventually I moved back into the house. My reasons went beyond the relationship I wasn’t safe where I was staying and being back with him felt safer at the time.
Fast forward to now: two weeks ago he went away for a course then started working night shifts. His sleep schedule was a mess and that’s when I noticed the distance. He stopped saying I love you stopped being affectionate. We argued once about it.
Then last night he admitted he had lost feelings for me. The conversation started when I told him his distance made me feel uneasy. He said I don’t love you like I should. How could I really love you after everything I put you through? The guilt is killing me. I care about you but you’ll find someone who loves you it just isn’t me.
My heart shattered. I begged him to give us another chance crying harder than I ever have in my life. I tried to convince him but he wouldn’t change his mind. I cried in the shower wailed in bed devastated by the realization that at some point he stopped loving me. When I asked when things changed he said he didn’t know.
I feel like I wasted two years of my life. I forgave him gave him another chance when he begged for me back and now he’s thrown it all away again. Just the day before he told me he loved me and then he broke it off. I told him if he ever wanted to rekindle things he could tell me but he said You’ll be okay. You’ll find someone who loves you but it isn’t me. He added that I love the best version of him but when he’s with me he turns into someone angry and horrible and he can’t do that to either of us anymore.
The pain in my chest is unbearable. This is real heartbreak. I can’t understand how someone can go from being so loving and gentle to losing all feelings in just a couple of weeks

Last updated on:2025-12-16T18:44:00+05:30