idk if anyone saw my first and only post two months ago where I broke no contact and called my ex n he was at the club and it hurt me so bad…. well I let him in again after that and we were on and off for the past however long it was till today. and let me just tell u this. pls don’t do it. run away as fast as u can for the sake of your heart. if yours was like mine they don’t ever change. they are not the person u wished they would be. no matter how much u love them. it’s up to them to change. my heart would’ve been a little bit better if had j left it at that. I deleted this app when I let him back in and logged on and it would’ve been 73 days. now I’m back in the beginning. not feeling as heartbroken as before though but more of just dissapointed in how little I respect myself. and the fact that I wasted time when I could’ve been a little bit more healed n just gone on living a life for me. oh well tho. life keeps on moving but hopefully we can leave him in 2025. so cheers to new beginnings. PLS DO NOT DO IT. it truly isn’t worth ur precious time and love everyone.
Last updated on:2025-12-24T00:56:03+05:30
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do you feel more sad about losing him again, or more upset with yourself for giving him access when you knew how it ends?
what helped me was realizing relapse doesn’t erase progress. you didn’t fail, you just learned the hard way. disappointment is still growth, even if it doesn’t feel like it yet
i broke no contact too, more than once. every time i let him back in, i lost a little more respect for myself and blamed ME for it. that disappointment hits different
I feel for you. its just the worst feeling