30 days

30 days of no contact but for some reason he’s been on my mind a lot. Maybe it’s because of the holidays and Christmas is around the corner. I do cry sometimes and when I cry I cry hard but I get it together and keep pushing. it’s been a really hard year for me and letting go of 5 years is not easy. I hope the new year is kinder and easier on me than this year. I wish the same for you all. For time and the new year to slowly mend your broken hearts and I wish you all unlimited blessings. This year may have not been the best or turned out the way I imagined but I keep telling myself it will all work out. I still can’t be on instagram due to all the trauma he caused me but maybe it’s not the best. After all how can I become better and reach my full potential if I’m stuck in the day comfortable place. To change is to be uncomfortable. I just keep telling myself everything happens for a reason lol just so I don’t crash out but maybe there is some truth to that. I wish everyone who reads this the best in the new year and happy holidays to you all. May we all heal and let go slowly but surely. This year taught me so many strong and difficult lessons but mostly it taught me that my self love should be stronger than my desire to be loved. I really learned to respect myself more and I learned not to hold on to someone just because I’m scared to start over and be alone. It’s okay to be alone and start again. I rather cry for a whole year while slowly healing than cry for a whole year while being stuck in the same cycle.

Last updated on:2025-12-23T21:43:02+05:30