it's 21:59 rn, and I miss him, I wonder what he is doing and specially if he thinks of me or not, I wonder if he misses me or not, I keep making scenerio about us and this is out of my control
I have an important exam tomorrow for which I didn't studied even a bit, tho I want to
But my mind keeps thinking anout him
and studying seems boring to me and I go back to making senerioes about us, where I can just go to the past and fix things or spend more time with him
or wishing he might reach out to me which ik he won't but I wish that, so I can tell him everything, like my day, how much I missed him, things I couldn't tell him before, stories, etc
and ask him about his day and just have a familiar conversation with him
Last updated on:2025-12-26T21:54:48+05:30
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have you tried writing down what you wish you could tell him?
Umm I do talk to chatgpt about all that 😭
i spent weeks making up scenarios in my head about my ex instead of studying. it’s like your brain won’t let you rest 💔
yesss, ah! idk how to get out of this loop
It's a recent breakup. First things first, right now, block him on everywhere. I know he's a good guy but, you're doing it to protect yourself, to detach yourself from him.
You're acting like an addict (no offense, we all have this behavior), you need him so the pain, the thoughts, the despair stop. It's normal, the brain is trying to protect you by going somewhere familiar (him and the routine).
But, the thing is, everything has changed. You're no longer together and you have to ACCEPT that.
Stop the ruminate, you say that studying feels boring but that's actually you need to do. It feels "good" watching or thinking what he is doing because it activates that wound.
Block him, study as much as possible, cry, write on a notebook, do meditation. Heal.
Take care, I hope you're doing well in school and exam.
Yes ig
it's just so hard yk, coz later again I will I shouldn't have blocked him or anything
and umm
yk he sent me a snap yesterday, saying stay healthy
and even today sent a snap a normal one
Okay so a while ago
at 9:10 pm he sent me a snap on snapchat.
Black screen with a text "Stay healthy"
And see ik he doesn't wanna reopen anything, but doesn't want hostility or guilt
probably acknowledged me as a human he once cared about
Apart from a this, he is a good human so ya
and for his snap I replied at 10:40pm with the same black screen and a text
Thank, you too. Merry Christmas
no contact for 30 daya
It's been 11 days since no contact..But I miss him soo much, tho we broke up on 2nd nov
and I can't control my thoughts