Today I have been lucky enough to have had my family with me to cause a distraction. The memories of celebrating Christmas together as a family hit hard but I managed to keep myself busy to focus on the now and the future. I hate that I am constantly thinking of what we had and where things went wrong. I still care for this person deeply and find myself asking does he think about me? Does he miss me? Does he even still care about me and my son?
I know I need to stop this but my mind keeps coming back to these questions. I wish I could stop this mindset.
Last updated on:2025-12-27T01:46:30+05:30
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when your mind goes back to him, is it more about missing him, or missing the version of life and family you thought you were building together?
it’s definitely missing what we had. I know better things are coming- I just wish I could shake off the last 7 1/2 years!
yeah, i miss him, and yeah, it sucks. weirdly, not arguing with my own mind made it quieter over time. it didn’t stop overnight though.
holidays were brutal for me too. i’d be surrounded by family and still wondering if he was thinking about me, about us, about my kid. that loop of questions just wouldn’t shut up i remember thinking, why can’t my brain give me a break.
don't beat yourself up. of course it's normal to still be asking yourself questions but they won't be answered by you. try to continue with distractions which will in time help to fade these questions into the background